To Love Deeply Is A Gift + Other Things I Learnt Last Week

I. 

We Should All Be Sensitive

So last week a poet I really enjoy, Alex Elle, announced publicly (on social media and her blog) that she was pregnant after years of infertility—male infertility—and a miscarriage.

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I am so happy and grateful on her behalf. But what I found to be more profound and challenging is how she decided to not make it (the pregnancy journey) too much of a public affair because she wants to be sensitive to people who are going though the same struggle of having a child. She says

Why boundaries? Well, there are a few reasons. One I mentioned: sacredness. The second is compassion and gentleness for the feelings of others still going through their journey to baby. I remember feeling so overwhelmed, jealous, hurt, anxious, sad, etc. about all the baby things, beautiful pregnant bellies, birth announcements and everything else in between that was shared online. There was no escaping it, and those feelings, no matter how put together you are, can seep in and wreck havoc on the emotional space you’re already trying to hold together. I get it, 200%. Dealing with anything triggering, especially something as complex as pregnancy loss and infertility in this hyper-digital age can be overwhelming and horrifying. So while some will say, don’t dim your light or hide your joy, I look at it so differently. I’m still walking right alongside the women, men, and couples who haven’t gotten their baby or rainbow baby yet. Pregnancy means so much more to me now than it ever has, and so does community.

I think that we should have this approach to how much we share things on social media and even how we live our lives. We shouldn’t be so self involved in our own good fortune that we disregard another’s pain that might be aggravated by our flamboyance. We should all be sensitive. Especially towards issues like this; infertility, abuse, lose, race.


II. 

The Great Gatsby, F. Scott Fitzgerald

If there’s anything that shouldn’t be forgotten about this book, and there are many of such things but for precision, let’s stick to one, it is the ending—

And as I sat there brooding on the old, unknown world, I thought of Gatsby’s wonder when he first picked out the green light at the end of Daisy’s dock. He had come a long way to this blue lawn and his dream must have seemed so close that he could hardly fail to grasp it. He did not know that it was already behind him, somewhere back in that vast obscurity beyond the city, where the dark fields of the republic rolled on under the night. Gatsby believed in the green light, the orgasmic future that year by year recedes before us. It eluded us then, but that’s no matter—tomorrow we will run faster, stretch out our arms farther…. And one fine morning—— So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.


III. 

To Love Deeply Is A Gift

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Zadie Smith

I was watching Zadie Smith interview Chimamanda Adichie at a book event on YouTube (I know, perfection!) And when the audience were given the opportunity to ask questions, someone asked about turning 25 and finding purpose and all of that to which Chimamanda said she never thought in those term but instead just did what she loved. And Zadie added that maybe it’s a gift to love. To find what you love and love it, maybe that’s a gift. And I think that was just brilliant. Just that idea that the ability to love something and be willing to suffer for it is just so profound.

Hoping I never forget this, especially when it isn’t going so well loving what I love.


IV. 

The Book Of Acts Is The Definition Of Passion

I concluded my study on the book of Acts this week, and it was just such an incredible experience for me because I really saw what it’s like is love something so much and pursue it, believe it and share it and die for it with such great grace and unmatched power;

Here’s a fast tracked breakdown of my study—

The Holy Spirit gives us the power to witness (1vs8) and has always been there, even in the old testament (1vs16) confirming that the trinity is the nature of God, and it has always been God’s nature from the beginning. Tongues utter the wonderful things that God has done (2;11) and the gift is for everyone (2:4, 19:5) contrary  to what I’ve heard some people I respect say. Faith sometimes requires an act in accordance to that faith; Faith is active (3vs17). Faith in Jesus is what brings healing (3vs16). The name of Jesus is above all else (4:12). The apostles had different encounters of the infilling of the Holy Ghost, showing that the infilling is not a one time affair (2:4, 4:31).God’s blessings accompanies the testimonies of Jesus’ resurrection (4vs32). Peter’s shadow performed Miracles of healing!!!!(5:15-16). The apostles thought themselves lucky and thanked God for counting them worthy to suffer disgrace for Christ’s sake—Wow! (5:41). Chapter 7 is crash course Genesis. God can show you your purpose in life (9:16). Stephen is a great example to follow, a man filled with the Holy Ghost (chapter 6&7).  Philip did not ask to be snatched away, did not ask for a greater manifestation of power through him, like we often pray nowadays, he was simply available to be used by God, even if that meant giving someone a hug (8:39-40). God knows when we pray to him (9:11). Acts of charity are acts towards God (10vs3). Jesus is the one appointed by God to be judge of all—the living and the dead. He is the one all the prophets testified about, saying that everyone who believes in him will have their sins forgiven through his name (10;42b-43). Hallelujah! Peter actually got comfortable in jail, not a worry in the world (12:6-8). Don’t accept people worship, all the glory belongs to God always (12:23). Through this man Jesus there is forgiveness of your sins. everyone who believes in him is declared right with God—something the law of Moses could never do (13:38-39). God is kind, to everyone (14:17). People are so easily swayed (14:19-20). Be like Timothy (16:2). It is more blessed to give than to recieve (21:35). Human hands can’t serve his needs—for He has no needs. He himself gives life and breathe to everything and he satisfies every need. From one man he created all the nations throughout the whole earth. He decided beforehand when they should rise and fall, and he determine their boundaries.  His purpose was for the nation’s to seek after God and perhaps feel their way toward him and find him—Though he is not far from anyone of us. For in him we live and move and exist. We are his off springs.  And since this is true we shouldn’t think of God as an idol designed by craftsmen from gold or sliver or stone (17:25-29). The message of grace is able to build me up and give me an inheritance with all those who are set apart for God (20:32). God is kind and compassionate towards us personally, and sometimes he does this by telling us of the future, showing us that where we are now is not where we will always be (23:11, 27:24). We can be kind in any situation, we have no excuse (28:33-36).

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